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Prime Directives

Things are going well and I am trying to make things go right for this weekend, this is going to be a huge change in lifestyle and the way i go about doing things.... having a parachute to be able to deal with some of the finacial concerns is an even better situation but it is very good that i am jettisoning some of the cheaper stock and still making a little bit of profit on some of it even if some of it is just me recovering costs. It doesn't hurt me and in fact helps me a little as to having space for more important things, and knowing that some other kid instead of mine is benefiting helps, i got into this thing because i had too much crap for my kid, it fucking exploded into me just having too much of everything just to provide myself an income and to pay the legal bills, and Now after trying for months to transition away from it I am stuck here holding all the stuck and the bag, in my world you fuck off on someone for over a month that's called abandonment, I do care that I'm getting fucked out of a show this weekend but i have made serious fucking plans for the next one to do myself if that's what it comes down to. I won't get screwed out of the money that is rightfully mine and that is owed, I worked too fucking hard at this shit to lose everything, but it has been put away in it's proper place and we will see what the future holds, but for now, the first order of buisness is taking care of me.

Current Mood: Annoyed, Hungry.

We are all selfish and I no more trust myself than others with a good motive.

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