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Prime Directives II

I am sick of looking out for other people, I have a few things i'd like to this year, but when i get demanding little cocksuckers i am doing major favors for demanding i give him fucking money when i haven't gotten to the fucking bank yet, it affects my veiw on a lot of things... i have no fucking time for all the turmoil in my fucking life to deal with self centered little assholes that are sitting there because i care about him and the welfare of his son to be taking abuse, yes, you helped me when i was working with my son, but i don't like being fucking taken advantage of when i have a little fucking extra scratch, i'm sitting there starving last week and this cocksucker borrows fucking money when i have it, and is demanding about it? I did this to protect myself and get my last months invested in my old place back and it seems as usual, when i fucking trust someone the knife goes into the back, but heres the fucking thing... I don't have to give over the apartment... i don't have to give a damn, i can walk away and not give a shit... it's not about me this time, remeber when i said it was time to be more fucking ruthless and care more for myself than other people? that time is now... i don't give a fuck about others because it's always someone being a drain on me as soon as i get anything ahead. I think at this point i will be extremely limited into whoever i have around the house and I will focus on the battle at hand, the only fucking thing that matters is taking care of that and getting my son home, trying to help out others only ever becomes a knife in the fucking back so at this point i'm more conceren'd with taking care of myself and my family, that's what should be coming first... I have this albatross around my neck that is currently or soon to be going into a fucking storage locker and those that make unrealistic demands upon my wallet and my time the weekend i am moving will be told nicely to fuck right off... I come first.. i Need to, I'm sick of bailing out people, because often when it comes down to it, the same people will not have your back. it needs to be about me for a while, I started writing today in a happy mood and then someone in the space of seconds changed it so i am completely pissed off, I am not giving up my home and my belongings to an ungrateful little shit that is threatning to rip me off... i'm sure it's just heated emotions, but we are both adults... and if it's needed, there is a fucking door... i'm perfectly fine with you using it.. i shouldn't be helping you out with rent today so i can get it back 6/8 months down the road.... how the fuck is that fair to me.. this whole move seems like it's turning into something full of fucking fail, and if i'm gonna get the knife in my back? I'll do it you first. I'm done with people and their bullshit games... if you can't afford to live the way you do with your responsibilities don't be a fucking drain on mine... i have responsibilities too... bad enough i am getting screwed for a major payday this weekend by someone i also once trusted, but has basiclly abandoned me to deal with the bills and the liquidation of this shit... at least when it comes to that i have a plan and something to actually for once look forward to in the summer, but for anyone who doesn't have my fucking back and is manipulating, I'm done. i No longer have time or the pateince for this shit and I'm sick of being anyone's Savior.. No one was their when I fell, why the fuck should i reach out a hand for anyone else?

Current Mood: Angry.
While you're stabbing my back, you can kiss my ass too.

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