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Darkness... When everything that you know and love... is taken from you so harshly... all you can think about is anger, hatred, and even revenge... and no one can save you

I don't know what the next step is, I only know that their is no backing down and unlike other individuals involved in the battle I am a man of integrity and There's no surrender, no remorse until the battle is won or lost, Until that last breath escapes from my chest and things are turly over, nothing will ever be over, i won't simply stay silent and disappear into the sands of time, if i have to get seriously fucking agressive even towards my own allies so be it.. This isn't my life and soul at stake... It's not about me and my happiness and wants, it never has been, It's time to make them remeber that, Even if i have to scare them to do so, I'm No stranger to being the big scary monster that some people should fear, some in my life havbe deserved it, other's have never seen it, i think it's time to Intimidate, I think it's time to start kicking some metaphorical walls down and get shit done for myself instead of fucking waiting and expecting others to do for me, because clearly those people are cowards and won't do it, So if i have to, I'll do it myself, Wouldn't be the first time, it likely won't be the last.

Current Mood: Angry.
Current Music: Within Temptation, A Demon's Fate

Do you know who I was? Nobody. Except on the day after. I was still alive. This nobody had a chance to be somebody.

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