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Bliss.

You will manage to keep a woman in love with you, only for as long as you can keep her in love with the person she becomes when she is with you

I had no desire to tell anyone I was in love. I knew and that was all that mattered. I had a theory that sharing would somehow take away the love and give it to everyone else. And I wanted it. All to myself.

Never fall in love with someone that won't fight for you because when the real battles begin they won't pull your heart to safety, but they will their own.


We had a great time this weekend and mostly everything went the way it was supposed to. i have never been more happy with the person i am with and i completely and totally am in love and want to make some moves and changes in my life.. everything is a forward moving direction at this point in my life. there are issues and the fun is over and It's time to fight another battle but in the grand scope of things this battle is nothing.. I'll do it for her easily.. but the costume ball was amazing and it was epic and we are probably going to repeat the experience on new years eve.. because it's important to me and the whole fucking deal is neat. i have never had a person in my life other than my buddies i've wanted to do these amazing things with. i'm not letting this one go. I will fight for her. She validates me so much, and i hope I'm just a good enough man for her.

Current Mood: Content.

Sensitive people either love deeply or they regret deeply. There really is no middle ground because they live in passionate extremes.

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