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Ghost.

Own that shit. Own it! What do you think was going to happen? Huh?... What, you were just thinking you can have a happy family and coach little leagues, and make car payments? Normal is a setting on the dryer. People like us, we don’t get normal!

When there is evil in this world that justice cannot defeat, would you taint your hands with evil to defeat evil? Or would you remain steadfast and righteous even if it means surrendering to evil?

I'm Frustrated, I can do amazing things with or without anyone by my fucking side and I still feel fucking empty 90% of the fucking time. It's getting really obvious that my time here is ending as soon as i can find a way to get all the medical shit I need done dealt with. It has nothing to do with my living situation and everything to do with my mental state and the ghosts of my past.... Nothing is ever going to be over as long as I fucking live here... So one of these days I'm Simply no longer going to live here... there is nothing for me here anyways.. that much is certain... everything else has moved past.. why sit here struggling daily just to figure out my life when i could be fucking elsewhere and happy... it frustrates me to no end that i am standing still. I have always moved forward and I have always had a plan.. maybe its fucking time to look one step backwards to a place i never should have left to get my fucking life back on track agian, because me and this Hamilton shit.. We are done.

Current Mood: Depressed.

Psychopaths have a lot of good things going for them. They are fearless, confident, charismatic, ruthless and focused - qualities tailor-made for success in twenty-first century society.

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