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Haunted II: Memories



I choose my life right now, i choose my epic adventures. I am not going to sit around miserable feeling sorry for myself and apologizing for the things that i have lost in this life when It was never my actions that have caused them. this year I have been Sadly reminded of how fragile things can be, and one day all you will be left with is memories. thats why im trying to create as many as i can for those I love. for all of those I love. for some I just have to keep fucking trying and for others, my inner circle i just go with the flow and do the adventures that come along, thats where I am right now. Trying to enjoy my life and enhance others life so they can see there is more than just work to living. i've always lived. I've always had adventures. Money was never a hindrendrance to that. It still isn't. there are those that are memories because they couldnt handle that fact. but im going to live my life and be surrounded by those that matter. because all that truly matters are memories... and I'm still making them. thats how one truly lives. making memories.

good or bad, however the night goes... you'll remeber me when I'm gone. I made a impact.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: Criminal, Britney Spears

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