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Welcome To The Chaos



I can’t keep listening to you go from crisis to crisis without having an active hand in. These late night calls are just you needing whatever and it needs to change and evolve into something better or it needs to fade back away to nothingness. I can’t give fifty percent, I never could. You never wanted that anyways. But now you are choosing to be the chaotic one, when that was supposed to be my role…


One day I will stop caring. It’s getting to be apathy now. You made you’re bed. Now lie in it. I’m not fucking there. There’s a good chance I will never be there. I’ve made peace with that fact. Why haven’t you?


This is the life you forced upon us. You’re decision not mine. And now you have a lifetime of regret? Guess what? I have none. Not one. Ever. Anything I ever did I did it for the right reasons. No regrets. No remorse. 


I don’t need or want you’re validation the same way you seem to crave mine.


There are moments that are cute and have meaning. And that little bit of daylight shines through, but I still can’t trust you… and that’s the whole part of it. It doesn’t matter any other emotion, it’s about trust.


My reality is that I am good with or without in you in my life and I am moving forward and doing things with the assumptions that things will never be the same and we will never fix this so I’m going back to the life and things that used to make me happy. I’m willing to change things on a dime but I don’t expect to. Not anymore.

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