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The Sacrifice.

 



You need to find and fix yourself before you are at the level of peace i am at. thats my first and only priority when it comes to whatever our relationship is. I've healed and come back from being broken. I am not the guy you came back to 5 years ago.   I am a lot closer to the boy that you knew 24 years ago. thats who you need to me to be. I'm always going to be here and an option but i need you healed and not responding to the world the way you do for us to be fixed. 


i know the things i choose to give up waiting on an answer but there is still a timeline and a moment out there, I'm just waiting for you to be ready. its our moment, not mine and not yours and it cant be forced. 


I don't know where things are headed but i liked talkig tonight and you maybe have you being honest for once. but i know that regardless at some point in the next year i will keep my word. i'm just looking for some more options for that. 



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