This is my life now. I hope you enjoy the fucking show. Its not over. Ever. Can you not be entertained. You know I start to really consider all the years in the wilderness wandering without doing things, did I really feel the need to be educated and sophisticated and above the things I love or was it a lack of contacts and money? I choose to think it was the latter but then I look at my college and university years and I realize the exact moment everything changed and I settled down. Was it worth it? Every second. But I wonder why ten years ago I was still chasing that dragon. I definitely consider it now that i shouldn't be. I like my distractions. That's part of why my life collapsed. I didnt have them and I held onto the tiny shred of something I can never have for far longer than I ever should have. I'm not a mythological character. When i have stories of the things ive doneits because I've done them and am continuing to do legendary things. That's who I am. Lar...