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The Bard's Song: The Hobbit.

 



I wear my fucking heart on my sleeve, quite literally if you look at the tattoo underneath.. thats the only true person I love, but honestly no one else is going to matter ever. Especially the women in my life that play games and go hot and cold and hide behind their illusions. Im right here, take me as I am, darkness and demons and all or just leave me the fuck alone.. im at peace, I dont need anyone, the only one I need is him... and thats the battle that would have me walk thru Mordor over and over agian.


Everyone else in my life is simply a distraction, I am fucking laser focused on that and always have been. I've watched empires fall around me waiting for that change. Maybe one day, but for now ill continue adventuring on my own... thats all I need. I'm at the point in my life I don't care who stays and who leaves and who comes back into my life in this moment. I know who will be there are the end. That's all that matter. Until then I'm good taking this journey with myself and the ones I love when they are around. No one else needed or invited.


Not all who wander are lost, and I am certainly no longer lost, im just not in search of a destination anymore. There's no fucking point. I'm having fun and the roots i put down have rotted. Any connection I have I can walk away from, in fact I intend to.

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