This is my life now. I hope you enjoy the fucking show. Its not over. Ever. Can you not be entertained. You know I start to really consider all the years in the wilderness wandering without doing things, did I really feel the need to be educated and sophisticated and above the things I love or was it a lack of contacts and money? I choose to think it was the latter but then I look at my college and university years and I realize the exact moment everything changed and I settled down. Was it worth it? Every second. But I wonder why ten years ago I was still chasing that dragon. I definitely consider it now that i shouldn't be. I like my distractions. That's part of why my life collapsed. I didnt have them and I held onto the tiny shred of something I can never have for far longer than I ever should have.
I'm not a mythological character. When i have stories of the things ive doneits because I've done them and am continuing to do legendary things. That's who I am. Larger than fucking life and quieter than a shadow when I want to be. Sometimes I'm both.
When i get invited to events with just the small promise of a wizard possibly walking by, thats fun. Im pretty sure by the next year one or both of my wizard alter egos will be walking by.
I'm just living to the best of my expectations and my circumstances, i have long since exceeded them both so anything now, its just entertainment... there was no silver spoon placed in my mouth at birth just a black 13 on the back of my neck. So I will be keep on living, I will keep on giving no Fucks. And having Fun.
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