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Aggravation \Ag`gra*va"tion\, n. [LL. aggravatio: cf. F.
aggravation.]
1. The act of aggravating, or making worse; -- used of evils,
natural or moral; the act of increasing in severity or
heinousness; something additional to a crime or wrong and
enhancing its guilt or injurious consequences.


today has not been a good day... even when i try to aceuate the positives i get shit shoveled right into my mouth... nothing like sitting in a godddamn medical clinic when i have a dislike and fear of doctors to get told as soon as i see the fucking bitch doctor i'm going to need a hundred dollars to this even tho the fucking recptionist said it would be 15.. between the fucking retards at the salvation army and the idiots working for the goverment that are fucking me over in red tape regulations and taking there time dotting their t's and crossi8ng their mother fucking I's.. i am starting to lose it... i thought i hasd fucking patince early.. i am fucking pissed.. this bullshit about not being able to get any employment funding is goping to end up with homeless and jobless and without anything to be able to fall back on.. i wonder why the fuck i even went to school becuase it is starting to seem anytime i get a fucking positive in my life it turns into horseshit or it falls apart on the first step... i don't know why the fuck i should care anymore... obviously when it comes to the big picture i am an insignificant worm.

Current mood: Pissed off and Hostile.

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