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Frustration Station.


i am slowly trying to maintian a balance between the positivity and the negativity that currently embrace my life... i am sick of trying to deal with beuacratic nightmares when i am trying to be positive and make a diffrence in mine as well as other's lifes... i don't need early morning bullshit when you don't have any better of an answer than the one i have already provided, things need to be done and now. i'd like to be employed and being a positive member of society not a drain on society, i just spent six fucking months dealing with the dregs of society in a job i only took to provide for my family. i am losing patience with the goverment and with everyone around me. i feel i am in a hole i can no longer dig myself out of and i don't know what to do... but fuck... i'm trying to find a way out of it.

it's probaly both cathatric and healthy/unhealthy for me but i'm writing poetry and angered emotions in my little black book agian, some of it is positive but not all of it is... it is a release of emotions and i am suddenly more and more aware of that fact and more cogniscant of it.

Current Mood: frustrated but hopeful.

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