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A Game of You.



You are absolutley correct, Today should not have have happened. Confusion reigns and i not longer know what to think so am i going to be preidctable and obvious and do the usual malignant disruptive behavior so it's doesn't affect me.. being stone cold to the passage of time protects me more than i want sometimes.But i don't wish to create Havoc in anyone else's enviorment, i am crippled by my own emotions and failures more than anyone who has ever tired to understand me will know, and i feel like have spread my poison once agian, i'm not a hard man to love, i'm a deadly man to love. everything dies and everyone goes away, it's better that way. that way i can't hurt anyone that i love or that might love me outside of bloodties which have to put up with my shit long term i have basically given up on trying to find that person, a soulmate or a connection, i have the feeling i might have shattered that today, and i was scared to death to see her in the first place....
"The price of getting what you want, is getting what once you wanted." ~ Dream ("Dream Country").

Back to your regularly scheduled behaviors, Same Bat channel, Same Bat time....


Current Mood:Still sad, misunderstanding.

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