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Questioning?


there are times when i have to remind myself that i chose this, this job, this life. I have achived one of my goals in life and as hard as it gets or it becomes i need to see this thruough. as difficult as it is for me, i think it's even worse for them. i have to swallow whatever doubts and reservations and issues i have and do the best job fucking possible. i owe them that, one day they'll understand why and that's all i need... yesterday was still pretty harsh tho.. i had to put aside an oath i had made to myself about something i would never do but it was a situation that called for it, i never understood that part as a child i am now starting to understand it, even if i don't like it still.... still don't plan on making it a part of the regular schedule of behaviors tho... it's too rough on my mental state. there are better ways of dealing with issues and i try to use them.
as we say, it's a last resort.....

Have you ever had one of those days when something just seems to be trying to tell you somebody?

Current Mood: Frazzled

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