The frustration continues, at least i finally got my vacation pay so i can pay my rent. However i am feeling seriously used at the moment by a lot of people esp. at work, I am not fuffling my career goals anymore at my present employment and it is getting worse instead of better, at this point my constant need for a paycheque and my connection to my clients is the only thing keeping me there, interactions with certian staff are becoming almost robotic and rehearsed esp. when they are late with pay, i guess after a year i should be used to this nonsense but i am still frustrated. it doesn't help when someone i used to love is yapping about money and not focusing on the things that are important like little mans upbringing and educational needs.. but that's par for the course, nothing new with little miss jecykl and hyde, nice one moment nasty the next. as long as i make a diffrence in my son's life and in my clients i can leave this world fuffiled, i just wish the things in my life didn't come with the supposed vow of poverty i've never agreed to be taking. i provide for my son, but i don't have anything for myself right now. hopefully that will soon change.. this weekend should be fun tho. he's reading comic books at the libary agian and he's so happy, so maybe having him around all weekend will lighten my mood and this wall of futilty i feel surrounded by will eventually crumble down. his happiness lightens my mood and makes me feel better. let's see what the future brings.
Current mood: Frustrated.
A hundred years from now it will not matter what my bank account was, the sort of house I lived in, or the kind of car I drove...but the world may be different because I was important in the life of a child.
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