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Through the Looking Glass part 2.


It's amazing what a 24 hours can do to a person, I was fired up and pissed off yesterday and today i'm strangely content, it's funny how both work and my responsibilties to my son and dealing with my ex wife's nonsense seem to go to together when the waters get rough and not a lot is making sense, but when one needs a relief from the nonsense produced from the one who shall not be named it seems i can go to work and realize these kids need me just as much as my own does, if not more... and to be someone there caring for them can turn my day around the same way my son does, i need to focus on being around people that provide me with good energy and advoid conforntations with people i despise and/or hate.I had a good talk with my supervisior shortly before the end of my shift and it's not just me who's getting screwed, for as much as our relationship can be adversarial he's the first one to let me know when something isn't being done right, whether i'm responsible for it or management is.

Current Mood: Strangely Content.
Your children need your presence more than your presents.

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