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Lightning Bolt.


...back to hamilton and I am agian missing windsor terribly, there is nothing for me here, the black hole of suck continues, i'm trying to stay positive esp. when i have three job interviews calling yesterday and it might tie me to the region, but at least there are some oppurtunities elsewhere, and i know this. i just wish that things we're simpler.

Current Mood: Frustrated
You want to think and say that you have everytning you need, but then you realize that something is missing, someone is missing... and once you think you've found it, it goes and disappears on you and you don't understand what to do or even where to start looking for that missing piece of the puzzle. You sit at home in lonely frustration and you just wait...wait...and wait. No where to look, no one to look for...

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