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One More Day....


It's always guesswork to the way things could have went, and why neither one of us is currently happy in our respective situations in life, when someone tears a chunk of your soul out and decides to keep it and play mindgames you can never see things the same fucking way agian, of course I'm not perfect but neither were you and we have only one little man linking us now, it's not like either one of us are ever planning on reconciliation but i know for a fact about the way i am currently feeling and a forty of southern isn't going to make the emotion change, All i see when I close my eyes is the way things could have been had you not been as vindictive as you are.. has it brought you happiness, I know that come tommorow I'm not the only one hurting here. Maybe i"ll write that letter tommorow and post it here, maybe i won't.

Current Mood: Sad.
Anger is just a cowardly extension of sadness. It's a lot easier to be angry at someone than it is to tell them you're hurt.

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