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Be Cruel To Your School


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So the first day of school has come and gone and it is leaving me wondering exactly what i want to do and be in life, i am now questioning how much longer i want or need to be at a place where I am the first one called when someone is in a tight spot but the last one thought of when they have other's to take care of things, it's not frustrating enough that i am questioning my place other than a warm overnight body at this employment agian, but there is the whole fact that they make mistakes with pay and then try and fix it with no notice, if an employer fucks up one pay does he have the right to deduct from the next pay without warning? I tire of the cracks in the system and the problems this place has, i feel used and abused and overworked and overtired, and then i can't get a goddamn friday off with my kid? I fell into that trap once, it will not be happeneing agian, Time to start looking for something else in a hardcore kinda way agian.... but i can't belive having full time hours and some semblance of jopb security would turn into such a clusterfuck.. but this time i draw a line.. i know what comes first.

Current Mood: Exhausted.
I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing.

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