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The Walking Dead part II


Why does Two days off often feel like i have just slept days for the last 48 hours and otherwise it's just another day at work? oh yeah i remeber, I'm getting ready for the other job and doing a ton of shit for it, as well as it being close to the end of my pay period so i had to go busking last night, I really need to find ways to have breaks without little man, I push too hard and just end up passing out exhausted, but i have goals and determination and dreams and I'm persuing them. time for rest later, I'll sleep when I'm dead. I am seriously still considering the youth jail Job with the ministry but i am leaning towards not being a jail guard... this will be the second time I've turned something down to stay in hamilton, either that's telling of how little faith I have in myself or how comfortable I am here, which isn't true at all... every ten days a little part of my soul is missing so i can never be completely happy here. But going somewhere else for the promise of an oppurtuinity doesn't hold a lot of weight with me right now... plus I don't really want to be a jail guard my current employment makes me feel enough like a jailer as it is. Will decide soon.

Current Mood: Bored.
Life can either be accepted or changed. If it is not accepted, it must be changed. If it cannot be changed, then it must be accepted.

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