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Alone?

Once agian in my lifetime i find the worst place to be in my life is when I am alone surrounded by just my thoughts, solitude does not suit me as i tend to look into the black chasm of who I am and Who I thought i would or could have been by this point of my life and I realize that I am not that person, i'm a good man, but i expected more of my life, when i am tethered to a moment in time almost ten years ago by someones vindictiveness I am starting to understand that their is no forawrd movement...Her final Victory is the moment i start moving in reverse and let her win and go back to the person i used to be, it would be very easy to lose myself and Not care and disappeer but i don't want to give her the satisfaction of an easy victory, i'd rather sit and rot inside my thoughts, and dwell and brood, because some day, things will change.. and it will not be my life that is filled with regret.

Current Mood: Sadness.
Solitude is the profoundest fact of the human condition. Man is the only being who knows he is alone.

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