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Apex Predator.

i've had my fun for the last few days and i am going to do something really positive tonight, but it's time to go back and deal and have actions mean something agian, i'm expecting blow back but that's all good, its better to be the hunter instead of the hunted, i've always said i'd rather be feared than loved...but the fear is irrational, its a mindgame. i will enventually vent on what i found out yesterday but at the moment other concerns are overriding the rage and anger and the hatred that would bring me down from that revelation... nice to have certian things that i knew as fact confirmed tho, agian it's time to deal with the problems and the root cause instead of brooding and being angry and powerless. i'm a strong person and as much as you try to destroy me, change me or try and remove me from yours and his life.. it's not going to fucking happen... i'm here i'm standing tall and im not going anywhere. it took a lot of pride to make that phone call and i am glad i did.. if nothing else i know exactly who has the advantage in the long run.. because the truth is my ally and a powerful ally it is.

there is a reason he got bought a randy orton shirt at the Tv taping.

Current Mood: Determined.

Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself.

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