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The War Manifesto II

Thoughts are Done being collected and The time to start with offensive fucking actions is now. there is no reason for me to wallow in depression and pain all weekend long and just feel like the hurt is never going to end. I am stronger than this and I will survive. I know who and what I am and there is no reason for me to see the darkness. it's time to take everything that has been thrown at me over this year of hell and turn it back on the ones that have caused it. I have enough to say and i am good enough advocate for me and my child that it is time to prepare to do war. there has been a lot of saber rattling and a lot of intimidation, None of it coming from me... don't get me me wrong i know how to be intimidating, but it will be my actions and not my words that win this battle... as long as i hold my head up high and don't descend to your level I will eventually see the right outcome. it's sad that everything recently has more to do with your hate for me, and i suspect your own inner hatred of yourself than it has do with anything else, let's play the game... right now it's a stalemate...but in Chess... which i taught you how to play... i always go until the checkmate... you gotta kill the king or be killed by his forces...I taught you that... and this is one King you can never destroy.... not until my dying and final breath. I won't stop fighting for what I believe and who i care about.

Current Mood: Determined and Depressed.
I will permit no man or woman to narrow and degrade my soul by making me hate them.

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