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Savage Freedom

I know that I am an asshole and I can be a jerk, but I also know that their are reasons for my actions and I don't treat maliciously unless they have given me a damn good reason.... I'm am sick of watching the world spin without me.. and I am sick of the fact that I am in a downward spiral out of No fault of my own... for my friends that are around thanks, for the ones that ain't Fuck you. for the Psychotic in St. Catherine's, I hope you DIE!!!! I was good enough for you to fall in Love with twice but not good enough for you to stick around? yet out of some sense of misguided revenge years later you plan to destroy all that I am? The last six months have been a trial by fire, and I truly appreciate who I am, the fact that I will not retreat when I take a stand and all of my friends and Social Supports that stand behind me, Instead of the ones that fell by the wayside because their own interests Came first.... Here's a toast to my former Employer for being such Stand UP members of Corporate Society... Not. When this is all Over their Are people that Deserve to be Remembered and their are a lot more people that deserve to be forgot. I'm always going to be the person I am and no one can change that, and No one should even try. you Will fail.

Current Mood: Apathy
Fake friends are like shadows: always near you at your brightest moments, but nowhere to be seen at your darkest hour.

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