This is the time of year that I hate the most especially when i have no motivations to go out and do anything, I end up sitting at home all day and playing video games and hating the world, not much different from the winter's of 05 and 06 in terms of self loathing and angry hate for someone who has wounded me. I know i shouldn't internalize but there is only so long one can play call of duty or watch television without letting emotions boil to the surface, the fact that I am bouncing off of walls to keep myself sane isn't helping either, at least in Windsor and Niagara I was driven i had purpose, i could deal with a cold day shut off from the world, I need to get away, i need to go home.. the longer i delay it the longer that day won't come... but first I have things to do and accomplish here, but then i get a day like today where nothing gets accomplished and feel like the useless wreck someone else wants me to be...Current Mood: Depressed.
If you stand up and be counted, from time to time you may get yourself knocked down. But remember this: A man flattened by an opponent can get up again. A man flattened by conformity stays down for good.
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