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A New Start...

I'm Not Angry, Not all the time at least, I just had an awesome time with family and spent my time wisely, I even seen the hobbit with a very valued family member, and i have to say it has been a great privilege to watch him grow into a man. i have a new home, and new state of mind going into the future and Plans that will come to fruitiion in the near future, it's time to start taking actions and repsonisbilty for those actions and not allowing my choices in life to be based on material things or temporary anger.. it's time for long term planning and Figuring out where things are going to be at the end of this tunnel so i can provide when I will have to... It's time to make changes to my lifestyle agian, If i can better myself and give myself a bulletproof vest from all the bullshit and lies that have hounded my life...I can't be broken down twice...it's time to make sure all the cracks are sealed and Do something new...It's time to grow up a little and be a better person, you know some times you need to be yelled at for an hour on Holiday to figure things out, but you know what those words had meaning, even if it stung and hurt a little bit. but your points were well met and advice well taken. It's time to move forward not keep living in laziness and Anger...

Current Mood: Focused.
Current Music: Within Temptation, Iron.
You can't live without the fire
It's the heat that makes you strong
'Cause you're born to live and fight it all away
You can't hide what lies inside you
It's the only thing you've known

You'll embrace it and never walk away

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