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The Slow Knife...

Two More days and Another birthday will have passed, I swear to all that i hold dear In this world that a third Will not come to pass without me being in his life... the selfish person that has put all of this in motion will be defeated by her own words and her own actions.. I am more than sick of the waiting but it is time for me to be on the offensive....I don't need to wait anymore.. I have the upper hand and it's time.... you want to use my past to destroy me that's fine.... I'm not the only one that has a dark past and i will use that against you... you have secrets too and i will use them against you... it's not about you and i, It has never been about you and I... this is a battle for his little soul and one of our views and ways of life... you choose to eliminate me a dozen times and each time I will rise up against you, stronger, angrier than before... when a man's soul is pure you cannot and will not destroy him with a carefully crafted fiction. one that you cannot even keep the facts of straight... you will destroy yourself... I have no need to do it for you.. I just worry about the little soul that hangs in the balance.

Current Mood: Angry, Determined.
You think the darkness is your ally? You merely adopted the dark. I was born in it. Molded by it. I didn't see the light until I was already a man, and by then, it was nothing to me but blinding! The shadows betray you, because they belong to me!

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