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..In Harms Way...

There are battles that need to be fought and battles that don't need to be fought, sometime My anger blinds me to the root cause of everything and prevents me from achieving my goal, and certian external pressures and issues have to evaluated and reevaluated and I need to find some kind of cohesive peace in my life... I know exactly who the fucking enemy is.. and I need to meet her/them on every fucking battlefield, But my actions should not effect innocents and not place them in harms way.. not everything is that black and white as it should be, and i'm not the only ones with their hands dirty, but sometimes you have to deal with the hands you are dealt.. and my hand includes anger and bitterness, rage and hatred.. I'm not about to dispute that... i am working thru it, but right now I need to make sure that every avenue and every battle is fought for a reason not just fucking mindless rage... i'm better than that, I'm a tactician not a tank.. every chess piece has been place exactly where it should be at the moment over the last two and a half years of hell... it's time to end this game.. not an infinite stalemate.

Current Mood: Angry.
He who has a thousand friends has not a friend to spare,
And he who has one enemy will meet him everywhere.

The foes that are unseen are often stronger than those that are seen.

The only enemy to fear is the enemy within, the demon that speaks in your own voice, the assassin in the mirror.

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