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Welcome to Hell

The situation has changed and while there is good news there is also bad news, I am currently in a position to make a person who deserves it life hell and I will destroy her peice by peice as she has taken everything in my life that was good and pure away from me... but right now I have to deal with the situation at hand.. I should be making decisions that effect myself and only myself and no one else, It's about one thing and one thing only... I need to fucking focus on that one goal.. being distracted by others selfish wants and needs and then having it explode in all of our faces and seeing that person making compromises the same way I did... that's not happening anymore... i am pissing off and annoying friends and family that are dear to me and that i need in my life.. In others people lives however.. I am simply fucking passing thru.... there is going to be some collateral damage and some people's emotions are bound to get damaged along the way but I no Longer have a choice.. I have a game plan and I have the way to get the things that i want and need in my life... right now I am buried under a number of bad decisions and having emotions spent on me on a hypotehtical after the fuckin world has crashed and burned on me twice, that's not something I need.. I am in Hell... it's time for me to be on the fucking offensive and give a little bit of that hell back to the one that inflicted it.. this is no longer a question this is a determination, there's nothing else... I'm sick of fighting.. But sometimes that's all that I fucking have left... so i fight a war.. till I'm a buried soldier.. you cannot destroy me... you can only destroy what i am.. but you will feel the fire on you before my life is over.. I promise you that.

Current Mood: determined, Depressed, Angry.
Current Music: Welcome to Hell, Venom.

Because a leader knows, it's not so hard to die for your people. It's hard to order your people to die for you. And leading with certainty into an uncertain future doesn't require sight. It requires vision. It requires holding on. And no matter what happens, never letting go.

The enemy is never more unnerving than when she's invisible.

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