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Watch The World Burn II

I'm depressed and frustrated and Most of all right now I'm sick of fighting... it's one thing to be fighting my own battle, that's never going to stop but when other children are placed in harms way and the acts of a selfish few are deliberately creating more tension it's time for me to walk away from the equation... the only battle I need to fight is my own, for my blood... Only for my blood. I do not have time for other people and their bullshit and their drama, i am close to completion and if it takes a drastic life change to remove the source of the disruption from their lives, maybe it's time for me to choose a different path, I made an informed choice that was somewhat forced upon me and now I am in the cross hairs along with other's that are just as much in danger, And no one around get's the gravity of the situation or really gives a fuck.. they just live there happy little lives and didn't give a fuck... never speaking out, they came for the communists too didn't they? and the Jews? I speak out because I have nothing left to give them, they've already fucking taken everything, them and my ex wife, but I'm not going to be the shining fucking savior every time a battle needs to be fought... I'll remove myself from the fucking equation and walk away, this was a bad idea to start with and it becomes more of a conflicting pit of hell the longer I stay firmly within the middle of it.. i would rather be a nomad wanderer of the earth with no possessions and personal ties to anyone than to continue fighting this losing battle that truly i have no fucking real emotional stake in, and that could effect my own child and mine's situation... I don't have time for this shit anymore.. My battle is my own to fight... My OWN. I shouldn't be fighting yours. it's time to walk away.

Current mood: Angry, Frustrated, depressed,deeply philosophical.
Personal affection is a luxury you can have only after all your enemies are eliminated. Until then, everyone you love is a hostage, sapping your courage and corrupting your judgment.

We often give our enemies the means of our own destruction.

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