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ASM: Book Ends.

It's interesting to note that at this point of my life that certain thing's are being noticed in my life.. when i graduated the first spider man came out... my last happy date with a girl that mattered was when spider man 2 came out in 2004, that was almost immediate before i knew that I was a father. and then at the end of my current battle, i go and see ASM 2 alone, when there is a gigantic hole in my chest and i know that someone who should be beside me isn't... it's time to fix this problem, it's time for the pain i feel to be inflicted on someone else and turn the tables... there is no malice in my heart but it's time for someone else to feel the fire and know what the battle is when it has been brought to them, almost ten years till my life changed.... the days are counting down... i'm waiting for the fire to burn hot enough that everything i have felt every day for the past three years burns you too... burns you away.... i can dance and laugh in the fire... it just makes me sweat... but you.. I will gladly watch you burn in your own gasoline... it won't be just me he grows up to hate... that's on you. if my epitaph was written tommorow, he would know i fought and never gave up.. this blog would serve as my epitaph.... and my last will and testament.. because i am a man, at my core i have never changed exactly who I am... and that man bleeds for him and will never give up. no matter the cost...With great power comes great responsibility. that's exactly what fatherhood is... nothing more...

Current Mood: Angry.
Current Music: Eminem, Legacy
There is nothing more naïve or less precious than an innocent child. Sadly though, the inevitable will happen, that child will grow older and with age comes awareness. They will learn that not every situation is within control, and that sometimes you lose. Darkness often rises and with it, good falls.

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