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You Know My Name...


Turn me up, my name is never
No my name, my name is never
Never surrender, never tell
Won the war, now go to hell

The game is ending and it's getting to be time to get back to the next step and start putting fucking pressure on the parties responsible, there's nothing left for me to do but go forward, if i am looking back in darkness then what's the fucking point in looking back it's time to push and smash forward... it's not about me, it's never been about me, and I need to push forward, i know part of that is looking within and making some changes to myself and being a better person and figuring my shit out both within and without, but it's time to fight, it's time to win or at least stand tall and never back down, and it's time to make people remember and wish they had never met me, I am someone they should fear, when this is all said and done i will have some new perspective on everything in this world and it will help me fight injustice professionally... you can't kill me, and you've only partially destroyed me... i'm the fuckin phoenix, you think this is the first time you've burnt me down? i was born and forged in fire... it's only gasoline i bathe in, it's only a match in my hand... it's a fucking dragon you are playing with, and baby you ain't no fucking princess....

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: Courtney Love - Wedding Day
Never wound what you can't kill!!!!

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