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One battle doesn't win a war.

One mark of a great soldier is that he fights on his own terms or fights not at all.

One battle is over for the moment but i am still fighting a war, and that's not something that's likely to end in a hurry no matter how tired i am of fighting.. but in this life you get only so many defining moments and this is one of them, I have options and decisions to make to go toward the next step. i have to make some serious decisions about people i associate with and their placed in my life because of so many reasons, because when it comes down to it i have my support system and a bunch of people hanging on and draining me, I'll always remember who was their when i was at my darkest and who wasn't. I have some options Now that I didn't have before but I also still have bills to pay and things that need to be done. It's about finishing the battle... the next chess move is being held under wraps because I don't need games played before the final end game but for the first time in these long years, there is going to be an eventual end game.. and you will lose.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: Eminem, Stronger than I Was.

There are so many battles worth fighting for. The ones not worth fighting are the insecure battles that rage in another person’s mind.

You will never be entirely comfortable. This is the truth behind the champion - he is always fighting something. To do otherwise is to settle.

It was important, Dumbledore said, to fight, and fight again, and keep fighting, for only then could evil be kept at bay, though never quite eradicated. . . .

I know that the whole point—the only point—is to find the things that matter, and hold on to them, and fight for them, and refuse to let them go.

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