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RAGE VI

The best fighter is never angry.

At the Moment i am angry because of many reason's starting with the fact that I found out today that regardless of anything i've done or any victories this year... i will still miss christmas yet agian with my son because the stupid fucking lawyer delayed things till fucking january... that is unacceptable and will be dealt with shortly.. but as usual All i have is anger and the sad fact to fuckign remind me that another year, another birthday, another holiday with family has been taken away from me.. what the fuck is the point of fighting when it is a contuininual struggle just to fucking survive... ten plus fucking years of this shit.... and all i do is stand agianst her, like a fucking rock, never moving an inch, but never getting ahead and doing the great things i wanted to do with my life... i had dreams, i had plans, you attempted to stop them but you can't but before i can move on i need to deal with having him back by my side and away from your lies... it dfoesn't help i've got stresses in my life like the fucking jabroni that can't afford the rent and plays games by borrowing all of my extra money and shit... and the idiot with all the transformers that has forgotten to pay me too many fucking times.... i am distancing myself from all that shit but not until i get what's mine and owed... the biggest annoyance right now is while i have something safe and secure for myself for the near future i am being pressured to move and find something nicer for me and a family member, I don't mind the idea but the stressful part is dealing with these fucking idiots in this city who don't even bother allowing applications and play games vieiwing places... i have responsibilities that involve my extra money and i am trying to do right by the people that have had my back in the last years, but i feel so fucking stretched thin right now all i want to do is say fuck it and run away, go home to Windsor, leave here become someone else agian, All hamilton and Niagara has ever given me is Misery, Why the hell am I still here? My anger and Rage fuels me, but sometimes when it's all I have and the darker edges of my life stand exposes, it's cold comfort to the fact i have sacrificed almost everything and I am contuining to sacrifice. and what the fucking hell for? for eventual victory? to beat her? she can't destroy me anymore than i have ever wished to destroy her, I just seek the end.

Current Mood: Angry, Depressed.
It is wise to direct your anger towards problems -- not people; to focus your energies on answers -- not excuses.

Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured.

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