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One Word: Vindication.

Everything comes to he who waits... and I have waited so very long for this moment.

And another Ending to a very long part of my life is over, and as much as i hate the system and the way it works, this is a beginning and obviously there is still one final ending to come because one battle does not mean this is over.. but it does give me some peace and possibly some finality... i do expect that this isn't going to be the end of this because there is some loose ends to deal with, but the hell of the last three years and the fact that you have destroyed everything else that was important to me to destroy the relationship i have with my son, well as of today that's no longer something you have destroyed, 3 and a half years of anger, hate and depression were worth it, one thing i am very glad is that i never made a decision to leave the province, i have thought about it, but the reality is as long as i have the responsibility of being a father and he's here.. I'm here... if he's not i will follow you to ends of the fucking earth to find him... you'd have to still kill me to be done with me.. but today i am feeling a lot less destroyed.. i do plan on being more aware and more of an activist for children's and parent's rights when i go back to work.. but for now i am just enjoying the moment and looking forward to what comes next.. because all there that is left is to finish the fucking war... and watch you lose.

Current Mood: Happy.

What is your idea of earthly happiness? To be vindicated in my own lifetime.

The only kinds of fights worth fighting are those you’re going to lose, because somebody has to fight them and lose and lose and lose until someday, somebody who believes as you do wins.

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