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Broken....



We all were broken by someone we would’ve died for.

Until you are broken, you don't know what you're made of

Look into My eyes and tell me "Do you hate me ?


We die a little every day and by degrees we’re reborn into different men, older men in the same clothes, with the same scars


It doesn't go Away, The great Void inside this black Hole inside my chest, I've finally opened myself up again and allowed myself to allow the possibility that there will be a light at the end of this black tunnel, I'm starting to allow myself to care about other's but as long as you're missing from my life and gone, I am a broken shattered Hot fucking mess... I am your soldier and the Oncoming storm, Never backing down from anyone I have to, But In these few moments of happiness i have finally fucking gained in my life it's fucking pathetic that the person most important in my life isn't here to share those experiences, this shouldn't be the way my life turned out, My childhood was hell, and any sacrifices I've ever had to fucking make were so that history did not repeat with my little boy, yet I've given him the same curse that I endured. as long as As the little part of my soul that constantly grows one day older every day i will remain forever broken and never whole... it doesn't matter how much sunlight I allow into my life as long as you're not here Son, there will always be darkness.. and one day both you and I will realize exactly who I the cause... We all have our own battles to fight as adults but I have fought enough and I am so fucking tired of fighting, But you are the one war I would gladly die on the battlefield for, It would be small sacrifice, as long as I know that you grow to be a good man and One day know the truth of the matter, regardless if it's me or someone I love that loves you as well, one day All will be told, And for the moment all I can feel is missing and hurt, I'm broken inside, the dark shadow void that never Fucking goes away. You are the reason My heart still beats and the only reason I haven't stared into the fucking abyss that looks me in the mirror every fucking morning and let him consume me.. I know that My dark side will always be there and keeping My Jekyll to stay under control and only be the asshole protector when i need him to come out and play... all my experiences in this life have taught me when and how to be strong, and when it comes to you, i don't care how broken and how much i am falling apart without you, there is no route that is even considered except ultimate Victory.. No matter how long that fucking takes.. and No matter how broken I am inside without you. I have always Stood alone In this battle and suddenly I find myself less than alone, But inside in my dark places, In the very fiber and being of my soul I will always be alone without you, and that's not something I am responsible for, i atone for my mistakes and i have very fuckin deep regrets... I take responsibility for the man I am today and the man i should have been, But I also Am the man I am today because of everything That has gone on, and one day you Will be made of the same dented iron that has enabled me to be the strong warrior In this battle that i have always been for you... there Will never come a day when I do Not fight for you, there will never come a day when i don't fight for you, here will never come a day that the this black hole inside my chest will forget about you, that this black cancer within me will not beat for you with every breath.. for me there isn't any other thing for my to be.. I am your father, that's something she can never take from me, from Us.....

Current Mood: Depressed, Sad, Determined, Hate.
Current Music: Behind Blue eyes, Limp Bizkit. My love is vengeance,That's never free

Broken does not mean non-functioning, or incapacitated, it does however mean ready for repair.

Broken?" I laughed. "Nah, princess. I'm a shattered fucking mess"

Why don't I forget the past? Because those memories and I haven't change when everything else is changed including you.

I have nothing to hide except for the fact i'm broken inside.

No amount of soul searching would fix my past. There was no magical Band-Aid I could stick on my heart, no special glue I could use to make myself whole again. I had shattered to pieces like a fragile vase on concrete; some fragments could be roughly cobbled back together, but many of my vital parts had simply turned to dust, pulverized and scattered by the first gust of wind.

It's what's buried deep inside that frightens me because it's broken, like a shattered mirror

The terrible shock of his sentence had in some way broken that wall which separates us from the mystery of things beyond and which we call life.

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