On the 19th it will be four years since my Life ended and the Cold war became an Intense fucking battle For my Life, my career, My sanity and my son's soul... Four years of hell, it's time for me to be the person i used to be and use the skills and knowledge i have to get back into the workplace and no longer be an angry burned out shell of the man who I once hoped to be, there are things still missing in life that i need to attend to but i have a little bit of time now and the freedom to return to my old life at least in a career aspect, I am almost forty years old it is time to become the functional person that i know I can be... the system requires change and it has to come from within, no matter how much I have anger and hatred for the system, I entered into this mission almost 20 years ago and it is not something I will easily walk away from, No matter the damage that has been done in my personal and professional life, it's time to return, it's time to be me. the answer is simply that while i have many diverse skills, man of which i have used to keep myself afloat the last few years, I have one adult dream that has only been left half fulfilled and at this point of my life I need to go back and accomplish the goals I need to get done.. this is and always has been a war with the system and deeply personal, But i have understood since i was 14 years old that the only way to make change is from within the system, and regardless of any personal battles with former loved ones and the system, The war against the system is not over and it still needs to be fought from within, It's still only about making the difference In one child's life, right now It's about making a difference in my child's life, he need's a father with a good job and a career, and there is only one thing i am good at, and only one thing I was born to do.. this is it.
Current Mood: Determined
Another man's evil does not make you good.
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