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The Shortest Straw II....

Behind you, hands are tied
Your being, ostracized
Your hell is multiplied
Upending
The fallout has begun
Oppressive damage done
Your many turned to none
To nothing

I am fucking sick of toxic people in my fucking life. I am no longer going to make an emotional fucking attachment to someone to find out that all they want is me to constantly do and do and do for them, esp when the said person is living in a house i have a personal connection to and is being rented to by someone I consider a freind since i was a child.. I may have not seen said person since i was a child but there is still respect for that person because they have never done anything to affect me in my life ever. and given the people that have run fucking interference in my life can be counted in the hundreds, i'm not going to affect the ones that have not. as soon as i realized where the fuck that this person moved i should have walked away... it's ridiculous that I'm trying to distance myself and my fucking girlfriend is being called upon to find because i left my cell phone at where i am staying instead of taking it with me because i am in the fucking 519, which you were aware of.. I know i'm an asshole and i know i have a hard edge, and i have NO fucking problem someone who becomes a hindrance to my fucking happiness or my way of life.. this week this person has done both.... for them this is,The Shortest Straw you won't be the first fucking friend i have broomed from my life.. and i have my reasons to do so, so no one else involved Doesn't get affected by the emotional connection that is in it's infancy, sometimes it's easier to walk away... esp when someone that's innocent could be affected and right now that could be compunded 3x. I don't have a problem walking away, I'm no stranger to it..

Current Mood: Angry

Current Music: LACUNA COIL, I Forgive (But I Won't Forget Your Name)

True friends are those who came into your life, saw the most negative part of you, but are not ready to leave you, no matter how contagious you are to them.

Fake friends are like shadows: always near you at your brightest moments, but nowhere to be seen at your darkest hour
True friends are like stars, you don't always see them but they are always there.

A sincere friend conceals all your deformities, deceives and convince others that you are extremely perfect, the insincere will tell the truth of destruction, leave you open for others to glare and laugh

Stay away from lazy parasites, who perch on you just to satisfy their needs, they do not come to alleviate your burdens, hence, their mission is to distract, detract and extract, and make you live in abject poverty.


What a desperate, pathetic fool I was. Time after time, my "friends" had shown me their true colors. Yet, I still wanted to believe they were sorry for causing me pain.

The characters in the four-lettered word FACT consist of seventy-five percent ACT, so it is always sensible to see the character of a person solely by his ACT or deeds than his words.

A person who could muster the courage to remove from his daily life the products that he basically doesn’t need would automatically delete the negative thoughts and the toxic people in his life.

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