I think part of the problem is that the war is over, but neither of us will concede the battle is lost to the other. All we have lost is time together and the only thing keeping us apart is foolish pride on both sides, as usual.
There is nothing left
To fight except ourselves, and I'm no longer willing to ever fight that battle again or against.
There are other battles in my life to fight for those that Also, for once it isn't just you and me and fucking brick wall over my child. I have other loved ones too. I will fight for them just as hard and the hand that has always been a fist still knows how to hold a sword. I still know know everything I've ever learned about how to get help and justice for those that cannot completely take care of themselves.
This may not have been my fate, but it is where I am now I won't abandon anyone that never abandoned me in my fights and battles. Sometimes some things are more important than matters of the heart and pipe dreams of returning to a life that resembles anything fucking normal.
This is about Loyalty.
I don't know how to back down, and I love to fight. This is a battle I must win, for once it's not about me. I can walk away anytime. I won't. I don't.
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