Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

#1 in the world agian in hockey, girls and boys, take that yankees. Current mood: Excited Current Music: Wild Side, Motley Crue. It seems that everything's gone wrong Since Canada came along

I am not feeling supported at work, i'm back to long 60 hour weeks this week and i feel that any decsion i make is trumped as soon as another staff comes in, it's frustrating... good or bad these kids aren't making any progress with all these fucking mixed signals. it's probaly the reason I blow of steam so hard or sit at home depressed after work, a few days was nice but a lot of the behavior this week was just blowing off steam, i shouln't party that hard but i end up doing so because i am so frustrated by everything going on within those walls, I swore i would never let this Job become just another clock in clock out job but it getting to the point that there is no point becoming mentally or emotionally invested, nothings ever going to change, I was a fool to think i could try, I was a fool to think I could make changes. Nothing ever changes, it's just the fucking system and it's flawed. Current Mood: Frustrated. Current Music: Crazy Babies, Ozzy. Frustra...

So very happy that sometime peoeople come thru on there word... I'm in a really good mood right now, it seems like everything is coming up roses, got called into work last nigth and their were no real issues and everything else is finding it's place in the world and I am so goddamn happy about that, got a new toy for work cuz a freind grabbed it for me to pay a bill... and i spent 2 of my 3 days of misbehaving... sometimes it just pays to wait and have patience and things will work out. Current Mood: Happy. When neither their property nor their honor is touched, the majority of men live content.

misbehaving on my day off as usual, but i'm feeling good and feeling happy, and i haven't felt that way in a little while. Current mood: Happy Life is a banquet, and most poor suckers are starving to death.

Some mornings are rougher than other's, this was a decent morning, no real issues, hopefully I am finally getting thru to the person I need to get thru, they are good kids the just need a little guidance and a little respect. some days it's hard to feel I'm doing a good job. this morning wasn't one of them. Current Mood: fuffilled. Current Music: Emienem, The Way I Am.... If you want to be happy, be.

Just like the energizer bunny, me and this endless work week just keep going and going, one day off and i had little man and he had great time, he loves his house so much, i could literally do nothing but hang out in my neighboorhood and he would be content, which is awesome.. I am starting to agian feel comfortable at work, last night i had a decent conversation with the object of my discontent and we spoke politely to each other and are starting to become on the same page, obviously we are not always going to see eye to eye on everything but it's better than being adversarial to each other all the time. Current Mood: Happy Current Music: Hair of the dog, guns and roses. The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.

Looking forward to another week with some more optimism then usual, have little one will travel, i am currently watching him put on a puppet show in the library. it's pretty awesome, he's so happy to hang out and just be himself.. speaking of being myself i had a good conversation with my boss and i feel a little sturdier on my feet knowing that i know the right from wrong and as long as i stay on my course and play by the rules as I'm expected i don't have to deal with harrassment from someone bitter and dictatoral, we need to all be on the same page but we don't have to be assholes about our point of view. Current Mood: Happy. Remember that all through history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants and murderers and for a time they seem invincible but in the end, they always fall -- think of it, ALWAYS