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6 years later...


i cannot honestly belive that it's been six years since i met you... i'm fucking cursed... i didn't feel like posting this weekend because i was depressed maybe in a perfect world things are fucking diffrent but here there just a big pile of dogshit.. it's not even worth living in this shithole fucking city.. everything has fucking changed i'm not the person i used to be and neither are you... we are older, angrier and more bitter... it's surprising.. i thought the angry young man i before i met you was the most angry person i had ever been.. now there's anger and also bitterness... it fucking sucks.. you've taken almost all of my drive to suceed away.. now i think i'm just going thru the motions to make sure that what is important to me stays cared for.. the continuing stabbing in the back and mental mingames are to be expected.. it's all you've ever done.. you're quite fucking right... you should have left me on that street corner... wait.. i'm the one that picked you up remeber?
i should have just picked one of any number of other's applying for the position.. i guess i'll have that chance now...

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