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Arma-God Damn-Mother Fuckin'-Geddon


We are Not impressed. it seems that certian priorities are extremely fucked up. I cannot belive this shit and it seems i should be examining my options esp. career wise. i did not fight this fucking hard to get where i have gotten to have it made a mockery of by bad planning and business decisions. i am very frustrated and that is something that should not be. i work very hard and the existance of freetime is a joke. i need to go back to some of my originals writings and essays and find some balance within them.. i need to reexamine my ethics and beliefs and get back to a place i am comfortable instead of being dictated to by superiors who don't have a clue, i know the ministry guidelines a lot better than most, and i need to go back and read my opions and facts on them to get back to a place i feel fucking comfortable becuase right now i don't feel that way... and this is not a one burned out day this is a contuinal process.. and i am coping with it the only way i know how and that's with DEMON ALCOHOL... and i know it's unhealthy... but seeing how i can't breathe much less have any time to hang around my support circles it's the only option. sleep, work, slep at work, get bitched at, deal with issues, work, sleep. welcome to my life.. it sucks.. not as bad as it used but i am not impressed to be working a weekend i have my son and the first fucking thing I hear in the morning is fucking bullshit about cleaning when I have been doing it all morning and it is not part of my job description they need to fucking pay me better if they want molly maid at 7 am. as i said before... Priorities are skewed... but then agian.. i need to reexamine everything and make noise... i have a voice i fucking use it... this is the job i want but i've gotta get more agressive in more ways than one... but i am not going to sacrifice my morals, ethics and beliefs for the job.. i may love this job and in a way it's a dream job.. but i won't sacrifice everything else for a paycheque.. if i see something wrong i deal with it.

Current Mood: Frustrated. (i should not feel this way all the time after work, esp. in this feild.)

when all of your wishes are granted, many of your dreams will be destroyed..

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