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Know Your Enemy.


There is a definite feeling today after discusing things with my social circle and the only peer group that i truly acknowledge that things need to change... even if i only do minor things like writing and fucking advocacy and maybe getting involved in a agency that is a watchdog or something... i may have the bones breaking from my back but i need to target the source of the fucking problems and not just get angry about it... i'm starting to become the motherfucker i was back in college and before with the fire up my ass.. complacency has happened for too long.. .. wheteher i just gave up from compalcey or i need a fucking kick in the ass to get the fire back.. it's fucking there... Enough Is enough and things need to change.. and Twenty Fucking years i don't think anything has.... the one fucking day i have off and all i think about is work even when surrounded by most closest and oldest freind... It's fucking nice to have that social circle that loves me though.. but it's obvious even with my professional and personal distance.. i am still seeing things through their eyes... and i make my decisions accordingly.. base don both experinces and expertise... I know i'm goddamn good at my job... there's a reason for that.... and I need to stop fucking Doubting Myself... and let the chips fall wherever the fuck they want to. I will make Change if i want to.

Current Mood: Determined.

God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference.


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