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Hulk Pissed.


This day is just turning out fucking wonderful... first she plays games.. but that's ok I don't have to work on Sunday this weekend so i'll just enjoy all of father's day with him instead of rushing him home... and then i'll take my sweet fucking time getting home. that works.. of course i'm about to change things in my life and it looks like i'll be seeking another job very soon as I am losing shifts agian... nothing like having 2 months from hell and then going back to extrmely casual.. it reflects how important I am. hopefully this is only a short break but I am getting frustrated by it... I don't like not knowing if i have a steady income from my sometime employment... looks like i'll have to find another job. defintly thinking if something comes thats more permanent or routinely full time i will take it becuase i am getting fed up with this nonsense... shifts here.. no shifts there.. i needed a break but 2 weeks of nothing is fucking ridiculous.. and 4 hours at this point affects my life a great deal esp in terms of Rent.

Current mood: pissed off and frustrated.

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