Battle Lines are Drawn...

Sick of sitting around and waiting, it's time to take the fight to the very same people that are not doing anything except propagating the Nonsense in my life, I have some serious things i can use to fight back, and i think that it's time for me to start using some of the information and abilities in my possession to start to take the battle back to them, I Should not be sitting home alone this father's day weekend, and it's time to make these people be accountable for their actions, this effects my life, my employment, my entire mental health, It's not even about me.. but when do these people realize they are doing more harm than good? OH yeah that's right.. they are always right.. and I'm Just a Group Home Kid I have No rights, 2 and a half years of past employment, 10 years in the field, numerous references, A million Incident reports to Niagara and the fact that Toronto actually supported me in my carreer goals should come into play, you would think that some of these things should matter, well if they are being ignored, it's time to introduce these things into play.. This Nonsense has to end I need to go back to having a normal life.

Current Mood: Angry.
Current Music: Harvester Of Sorrow, Metallica.
In war, truth is the first casualty.

Comments

Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Franco Un-American.

I hate everyone. I just pretend I don’t because I’m chasing this false inner peace, thats being constantly eroded by outsiders. I am happy, I was at peace. But I do see my country and more importantly my city for what it’s for and I’m getting angry again. Maybe I do need to be angry. Maybe I do need to rebel. Maybe I do need to speak out despite the fact that it can be used against me and hurt those I love. Nothing fucking new to me. This apathy has gotten me nowhere, this trying to be at peace was working but maybe I need to be angry, maybe I need to rail agianst the things that once were right have now went wrong. This isn’t a world I want my child growing up in, and he’s grown. But this isn’t the world I promised him. This is something else. This city wants to pick a fight with me? Cool, I know what busybody bitch it is. Don’t think I will tolerate any threats to those that I care for or myself. You want to fucking start a war? Maybe it’s time for me to be angry again.

Someone Like You.

I know there are aspects of me, my personality and my life that you still like. It’s why you had my child and no one else’s. But I don’t colour within the lines enough for you to settle down with. That’s been acknowledged for two fucking decades. He’s an adult. I don’t need to answer to anyone anymore in my life. I wasted years fighting you when I should have been fixing you. But those moments are over. All of our moments are over. I don’t even need to be angry. I just need to be. You and I are toxic. I’m better off without you in my life. It’s a little less toxic when I’m the only one on the boat. Only the captain goes down with the ship. I’ve always known i would die alone anyhow. No family, no friend’s, no real accomplishments to my life. I wrote that line almost 30 years ago. Self fulfilling prophecy. At least that way when I implode no one gets hurts. I was a fool to think otherwise. I’ve left too much damage in my path. I just want to be happy and at peace whatev...

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