Battle Lines are Drawn...

Sick of sitting around and waiting, it's time to take the fight to the very same people that are not doing anything except propagating the Nonsense in my life, I have some serious things i can use to fight back, and i think that it's time for me to start using some of the information and abilities in my possession to start to take the battle back to them, I Should not be sitting home alone this father's day weekend, and it's time to make these people be accountable for their actions, this effects my life, my employment, my entire mental health, It's not even about me.. but when do these people realize they are doing more harm than good? OH yeah that's right.. they are always right.. and I'm Just a Group Home Kid I have No rights, 2 and a half years of past employment, 10 years in the field, numerous references, A million Incident reports to Niagara and the fact that Toronto actually supported me in my carreer goals should come into play, you would think that some of these things should matter, well if they are being ignored, it's time to introduce these things into play.. This Nonsense has to end I need to go back to having a normal life.

Current Mood: Angry.
Current Music: Harvester Of Sorrow, Metallica.
In war, truth is the first casualty.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

The Threat.

I an not a nice person. I am not polite or nice. I am scary and intimidating and I draw power from that fact. You fuck with the people I love and hurt them, I’m going to damage you in kind. I want people afraid of me. It means I’m respected. It means you’re intimidated. I would rather be horrifying damaged and leave with nothing if it gives me the power and the freedom to protect my friend’s and family. Keep in mind a man with nothing to lose once had everything slip thru his fingers. And I have no fucking problem being a threat, to you, to my enemies, to society. You name it. I simply don’t care. The best defence has always been to confront and attack whatever the source of the problem. It hasn’t always brought me victory but at some point it’s brought me peace knowing that I’ve never backed down or done anything to hurt anyone. Just responded to what has happened to me and the ones I love. You don’t want to be my enemy. It’s a bad place to be. And once you are marked as su...

The Remedy

I am reminded when I need someone how truly alone I am in this world. Because for as much as I am the constant and the shoulder to cry on. The same respect isn’t accorded to me, obviously. It hasn’t been in years. This is why I have never and will never need you. I don’t need anyone. Especially when I am fucking hurting over a lost freind. I hurt, I get to do that. I’m fine with that. I process and move on. I spend a couple days where I block out the world and keep going but I’m fine. I don’t accord anyone I don’t trust or respect the time of day. It’s not about who it is. I’ll willing burn a bridge im fucking standing on if it means I take you with me if I see you as my enemy. I’m on a quest for peace, anything that gets in the way of that or causes turmoil in my life can get the fuck out of my way or become ash, because I will go the fuck thru you. Affect my responsibilities in my life, I will accord the same respect you do to them, I don’t mind being a blunt instrum...

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