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Reckoning Day

In 5 days it will have been two fucking Months, No one is answering calls or/or answering questions, It's time to go on the the fucking offensive, I'm innocent, It's time to involve the lawyers in this shit... this is more of my ex wife's nonsense to continue to keep my son out of my life, and there is a deep anger growing inside, my fucking patience level is at all time high, If there is a hell it has to be a more comfortable place than wear i am currently standing. There is no point to this, she is going to be exposed for the lunatic she is and that this is all a way to avoid getting a fucking lawyer once again, but of course who needs a fucking lawyer when you can have the authorities use falsehoods against you,of course I need a lawyer before I become railroaded into something I have not done... like i said before, please stick me in jail, 24-7 fight club... and I'll sit every freaking day on my head until i am released without ever pleading guilty because i am not, whatever my upbringing, whatever mistakes I've fucking made there is no reason for my little boy to suffer because of her bullshit machinations, it's been two months, this fucking horseshit ends now, esp. if i have to involve the legal system, who i probably should have had involved since day one, when it comes to this kind of shit, No one is to be trusted...

Current Mood: Anger.
Let's not forget that the little emotions are the great captains of our lives and we obey them without realizing it.

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