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Tactical.

I am sick of feeling like a prisoner of war in my own life, the time for patience is done, it's not time for me to start fighting back, this is a theater of war and it's time for me to use my intelligence and my skills and my contacts to deal with this, I'm not angry but i am getting to a point where enough is enough and i would rather go down in flames for what i believe in and what's important than to sit here and let the system dictate my life again, I've evolved past that, the fact that old wounds have been reopened by one i used to trust to gain a tactical advantage is going to backfire on her and those that she surrounds her with, I'm waiting, I've lost patience and it's time to make some aggressive movements to counter some of this nonsense but i should never have sat on it in the first place, i should never hold a belief that people are good and will do the right thing... that's not why they have jobs, that's not why i have a job.... there is a whole industry built on tearing families apart and if i have to lose my career because of this I will, I will not lose my son. it's time to start fighting back.

Current Mood: Determined.
No man knows the genuineness of his convictions until he has sacrificed something for them.

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