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Judgement Day

It appears everything will soon be at at end and it will be time to start to returning to normal or my life as it currently stands will be completely obliterated, by wednesday i should have some fucking answers and I will be vindicated, It's time to start going threw the motions to start putting the pieces back together in my life, thank god i am a strong person or mentally i would not have been able to persevere threw this nonsense and i would not be able to deal with someone once that I would have died for, decided to stick the knife and twist it in the deepest hole, There are lesser ways to destroy a man without attempting to destroy his soul while you are at it, the light inside my eyes has started to die out and is being replaced by a new kind of black fire, anger and hatred will probaly serve me better in the future in dealings with you anyways, at least this time i plan on holding nothing back, i will use everything i have to protect myself and those that I care about, Up until recently, even tho we had our diffrences I counted you as one of those people i care about, not anymore, now i'll shed a tear for your corpse at the end of your life but as far as long as your breathing and sharing this earth with me you are an enemy and not to be trusted, it's not up to me to decide how that you will be judged, but when the end of days comes.. and it will.... I'm not the one that's gonna be judged... and sent to hell for lies.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: Captive Honour, Megadeth
At the Day of Judgment, we shall not be asked what we have read, but what we have done.

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