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Modern Warfare.

Another useless day of half truths and bullshit, it's not like my life is important.. i am pretty good at telling when someone is lying to me and it's time to start getting aggressive and dealing with these people on the same terms they are dealing with me, it's always good to find out that when dealing with the child's best interests that the father is always taken out of the equation because we are the lesser part of the equation, all the father is good for is the wallet and financial support when it comes to the system, that is very clear to me... It doesn't fucking help when things are very apparent from an employment standard that there is no support and there won't be, it's unlikely i will return to my job as i have somewhat made a personal decision not to, I don't like being lied to and I'm not sure exactly who is lying but it's obvious someone in the system is covering there own ass, Of course i would not be surprised if it was my employer that lied to me, they've never done that before, of course this is probably a good way of brooming me away without severance, and of course that comes into play with my living arrangements..of course that's exactly what she wants, demolishing my career and personal life is exactly in here plans because she's too cheap to fight me legally with a lawyer, and this is an easier way of creating custodial interference, who gives a damn about the long term damage to him or me, I know she will never be forgiven, and it has been a long time since i trusted her, but this is beyond the reality of what i ever thought she was capable of, but it's nice to see the system almost complacent in the destruction of a man, but of course in there eyes i am somewhat less than a man, it's exactly the self fulfilling prophecy i expected every day of my life, when i finally think I'd escaped my fate, it draws me back, at least one answer was clearly given today today and that is the one that was important, so I will hold onto that glimmer of hope from that phone call and see if it proves fruitful.

Current Mood: Tired.
In war, there are no unwounded soldiers.

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